Monday, December 16, 2013

Depression

Today I woke up with depression, which is a fitting term since to me it feels like a cavity just behind my breastbone. It also feels like my limbs have been weighted down, almost like gravity has increased in strength.

It's days like this when it takes a serious energy expenditure to do basic life tasks like eating, showering, getting dressed. It's days like this when I am amazed at my favorite bloggers who somehow have such a bottomless well of energy that they manage to post every day.

It's days like this when I am profoundly grateful for my companion, who I can rely on to do nice things for me when I would otherwise be lying in bed with this hollow feeling eating me up.

I've had a lot of days like this, but it's especially craptastic right now because there's a lot of things I want to do - and I'm doing some of them, but I know that this depression is going to suck my motivation into it and I'm not going to get all of it done.

I'm not going to focus on that, though I could make a long list.
Instead I'm going to focus on what I have done.
I have...

  • Gotten up in the morning (11:30 AM! Woo!)
  • Eaten breakfast
  • Started two loads of laundry
  • Folded the towels and PJs that my roommates had left sitting in the dryer
  • Put away dishes from the dishwasher
  • Brought in the trash cans from the curb
  • Taken an armful of recycling out
  • Eaten lunch
Now I can also say I've written a blog post, though not the one I'd wanted to write. Even putting all that down makes my limbs feel a little more loose, as if the extra gravity is releasing its hold.

I am going to go finish up that laundry now, and perhaps when I come back I will get started on one of the other things.

Tuesday, December 3, 2013

Doctor Who 50th Anniversary Special video review, n'at


Here's what Moffat said about Rose, which sums up why I'm ok that Rose was absent:
"I thought the story of Rose, which was beautiful, was done. I didn't want to add to it, I didn't feel qualified to add to it. That was always Russell's [T Davies] story. The way Russell ended it in The End of Time was perfect. I didn't want to stick another bit in. It would be wrong. But we did want Billie Piper, one of the absolute heroes of Doctor Who, back in the show without interfering in the story of Rose Tyler. I think I might of spoiled something if I had done that."
What Moffat said about the upcoming Christmas special:
"It's a proper finale to Matt Smith, it's the story we've been telling since he put the bow tie on. A lot of stuff we've left hanging, we tie up there. And it's Trenzalore!"
Soooo basically, take all my predictions and hold onto them for Christmas. Except also add in the hope that they'll place the 50th in there as well, in terms of continuity. Because CONTINUITY, DAMN IT.

More links:
Xmas episode teaser trailer
One reason I have hope for continuity in the Xmas episode (from the 50th)
More reasons I have hope for continuity in the Xmas episode

Monday, December 2, 2013

NaNoWriMo: FOR THE WIN

 I DID IT!!!!!!


The last day was a serious push for me - more words of fiction than I'd ever written in a single day before - and to be completely honest, if it weren't for my Kickstarter backer's support, I don't know if I'd have finished. If it weren't for my roommates' support, I am 100% sure I wouldn't have finished. That last day, Saturday, was a cleaning day. Not just any weekly cleaning day, a post-Thanksgiving cleaning day. Yet they very kindly let me skip out early so I could get to writing.

Another victory, not quite as great but just as important to me:


I wrote every day during the month of November. Even during my bad depression days, even during my super busy days. Every! Day!

I am super proud of myself, y'all.

Thank you for all of your support, and I'll definitely be keeping y'all posted as my novel progresses from fifty thousand hastily-written words into a published book. Stay tuned!