Monday, December 16, 2013

Depression

Today I woke up with depression, which is a fitting term since to me it feels like a cavity just behind my breastbone. It also feels like my limbs have been weighted down, almost like gravity has increased in strength.

It's days like this when it takes a serious energy expenditure to do basic life tasks like eating, showering, getting dressed. It's days like this when I am amazed at my favorite bloggers who somehow have such a bottomless well of energy that they manage to post every day.

It's days like this when I am profoundly grateful for my companion, who I can rely on to do nice things for me when I would otherwise be lying in bed with this hollow feeling eating me up.

I've had a lot of days like this, but it's especially craptastic right now because there's a lot of things I want to do - and I'm doing some of them, but I know that this depression is going to suck my motivation into it and I'm not going to get all of it done.

I'm not going to focus on that, though I could make a long list.
Instead I'm going to focus on what I have done.
I have...

  • Gotten up in the morning (11:30 AM! Woo!)
  • Eaten breakfast
  • Started two loads of laundry
  • Folded the towels and PJs that my roommates had left sitting in the dryer
  • Put away dishes from the dishwasher
  • Brought in the trash cans from the curb
  • Taken an armful of recycling out
  • Eaten lunch
Now I can also say I've written a blog post, though not the one I'd wanted to write. Even putting all that down makes my limbs feel a little more loose, as if the extra gravity is releasing its hold.

I am going to go finish up that laundry now, and perhaps when I come back I will get started on one of the other things.

Tuesday, December 3, 2013

Doctor Who 50th Anniversary Special video review, n'at


Here's what Moffat said about Rose, which sums up why I'm ok that Rose was absent:
"I thought the story of Rose, which was beautiful, was done. I didn't want to add to it, I didn't feel qualified to add to it. That was always Russell's [T Davies] story. The way Russell ended it in The End of Time was perfect. I didn't want to stick another bit in. It would be wrong. But we did want Billie Piper, one of the absolute heroes of Doctor Who, back in the show without interfering in the story of Rose Tyler. I think I might of spoiled something if I had done that."
What Moffat said about the upcoming Christmas special:
"It's a proper finale to Matt Smith, it's the story we've been telling since he put the bow tie on. A lot of stuff we've left hanging, we tie up there. And it's Trenzalore!"
Soooo basically, take all my predictions and hold onto them for Christmas. Except also add in the hope that they'll place the 50th in there as well, in terms of continuity. Because CONTINUITY, DAMN IT.

More links:
Xmas episode teaser trailer
One reason I have hope for continuity in the Xmas episode (from the 50th)
More reasons I have hope for continuity in the Xmas episode

Monday, December 2, 2013

NaNoWriMo: FOR THE WIN

 I DID IT!!!!!!


The last day was a serious push for me - more words of fiction than I'd ever written in a single day before - and to be completely honest, if it weren't for my Kickstarter backer's support, I don't know if I'd have finished. If it weren't for my roommates' support, I am 100% sure I wouldn't have finished. That last day, Saturday, was a cleaning day. Not just any weekly cleaning day, a post-Thanksgiving cleaning day. Yet they very kindly let me skip out early so I could get to writing.

Another victory, not quite as great but just as important to me:


I wrote every day during the month of November. Even during my bad depression days, even during my super busy days. Every! Day!

I am super proud of myself, y'all.

Thank you for all of your support, and I'll definitely be keeping y'all posted as my novel progresses from fifty thousand hastily-written words into a published book. Stay tuned!

Friday, November 22, 2013

Doctor Who 50th: Prediction Time!

Alright, if you've been following along, you know that I've made some predictions about 11's timeline during the Fall of the Ponds, namely that it's been in the wrong order. 

Well, actually, from a non-linear, non-subjective viewpoint it's been in the right order, but what I mean to say is that I believe the Doctor experienced S7 in a different order than Amy and Rory, as well as the viewer. I made some specific predictions about the order, but I'm not really confident about most of them. Though I will bet my bottom dollar that The Power of Three came before A Town Called Mercy.

This is from The Power of Three (S7E4)

This is from A Town Called Mercy (S7E3)

This hasn't been explicitly referred to in canon, only in hints like the above (which to be honest were pRETTY STRONG HINTS i mean HE SAID IT OUT LOUD WITH WORDS that is NOT A COINCIDENCE), and that means I don't get to officially gloat about it.

Yet.

But, do you remember how The Name of the Doctor ended? Do you?


That's right. The Doctor (SPOILER ALERT, DON'T SAY I DIDN'T WARN YOU) jumps into his own time-stream.

Which means (and I'm going to call it here and now) that the 50th anniversary episode will take place within the Doctor's own timestream, and it will finally be revealed that he hasn't always visited his companions in a linear order.

Moffat, you terrible, gorgeous genius. Don't let me down.

*crosses fingers*

Wednesday, November 13, 2013

It is 1:36 AM

... which means technically, it's Day 13.


I fell behind again over the weekend, and haven't really caught up. Part of this is because of the ridiculous sleep/insomnia issues that my jerkbrain has been throwing at me over the past few days. However, please do notice the upward progress!

FYI, most of that is due to this:


DAT'S RIGHT I KEPT UP MY STREAK
BOOYEAH!

New plan: Instead of fighting my body, I'm going to start using its powers to provide me with words. Sleep during the day, spend time with household in the evening, write my face off by night. I've already put that plan into action somewhat. Notice the significant bump that Day 13 already has. And it's only... 1:43 AM!

Now it's back to the writing! Let's see how big a jump I can really get on Day 13.

Thursday, November 7, 2013

NaNoWriMo: Crossing the line!

I caught up! Check it out:


That is totally crossing the grey line!! MINOR VICTORY!

Another minor victory: I have over 10,000 words!

And another:


IT LOOKS LIKE I MIGHT ACTUALLY MAKE IT THE WHOLE MONTH
HOLY CANNOLI, BATMAN

Hold onto yer butts, because my next goal is to actually get AHEAD of the grey line. Let's see how that goes! I will keep you posted!

Monday, November 4, 2013

NaNoWriMo: Beginnings

Good news everyone! My Kickstarter got funded! Which means I get to do NaNoWriMo without job-hunting for the duration. This is awesome. I sent out some surveys, and then sent an update to direct folks here. So if you're here from Kickstarter: Hello! And also: Thank you! You have good things coming to you. This update is one of them! (So is this youtube video that I made.)

The first writing day was a Friday, and I didn't meet the "average daily goal" of 1667:


Screenshot taken from 750words.com , which I highly recommend. I signed up for the November monthly challenge, which gives me an extra incentive to actually sit down and write every day. Not tomorrow. Not later. Today. Now.

My weekends are generally busier than my weekdays, which is one of the joys of being the marginally employed partner of a full-time worker, but not so great for writing. And this weekend was the weekend after Halloween! That's prime party time, y'all. The only time I had to spare was my Tumblr time, so my Activity dropped off precipitously.

Worth it.

But at the end of today, my word count looked more like this:


YES MUCH BETTER.

Another reason that I got off to such a slow start is, well... I'm a slow starter. It takes me a while to rev up. But I feel pretty good, and I'm super confident that by the end of the week I'm going to cross that grey line...


Stay tuned for more updates.

Sunday, March 3, 2013

The Proud Atheist and the RDF disappoint...

So I was on Facebook, and as I 'like' the Richard Dawkins Foundation for Reason & Science, I saw the following on my feed:


The T-Shirt at the link?  Obviously features a caricature of a fat guy stuffing an entire feast into his face.

GJ GUISE
WAY TO BE ASSHOLES
YOU'RE MAKING ATHEISTS LOOK REAL GREAT THERE

AND RDF GJ PROMOTING THAT
YEAH YOU'RE LOOKING MORE AND MORE PROGRESSIVE EVERY DAY

WE COULD PROMOTE REASON AND SCIENCE
OR LET'S JUST MAKE FUN OF FAT CHRISTIANS
THAT IS BOTH REASONABLE AND SCIENTIFIC RIGHT?
HA HA FAT PEOPLE ARE FAT
HA

Tuesday, February 26, 2013

My mother is Mrs. Bennet

Today my mother told me that the song that she and I will dance to at my wedding is My Little Girl by Tim McGraw.

THIS SONG. THIS ONE.
  1. I don't even like country music, and I would find this kind of thing really embarassing!
  2. Can you tell my mother's never been married and fetishizes weddings, like a lot?
  3. THE BRIDGE IS SO INSULTING TO THE PROSPECTIVE GROOM.
    I know he'll say that he's in love / But between you and me. he won't be good enough
    WTF THAT IS NOT A WEDDING SONG
  4. I'm not even in the sort of relationship where marriage is part of the game plan.
  5. And as far as my mother knows, I'm single.  Hence the title of this blog post.
  6. This song is explicitly from the perspective of a father? Which is kind of a sore spot for me, since I was raised by an abusive alcoholic single mother.
  7. Hey, thinking about that last bit, my mother is not actually going to be invited to any wedding I might hypothetically have someday in the distant future.
I suppose the fantasy won't hurt her for now since god only knows if I'll do a wedding in my life, but Jesus Christ is this just so disconnected from reality.  I'd almost feel bad for her, if watching that video didn't make me feel like I need to take a shower.

Monday, February 18, 2013

This is my brain, and I live in it.


Muse is away from the blog right now.
Please enjoy this lovely image of John and Sherlock supporting queerness.

Other things in life have been taking up a lot of my time lately, which I'm sure you've noticed.  This happens periodically in the life of an academic, I've noticed.  Scramble/crunch time, followed by stretches of maintenance and catching up.  I've also been writing some fiction lately, which has taken some not-insignificant amount of time away from blogging.

Plus it's convention season!  The Bay Area Renaissance Festival is rapidly approaching, and after that there's 221BCon and TimeGate.  All these things will be wonderful, and also time-consuming.

If you want to keep track of my face, I have some recommendations:
  1. The Face... book?  The thing is, I only friend people I know, so that's only applicable to people who know me in meatspace.  And if you do, we're probably already Fbook buddies.
  2. Here is my tumblr.  You can follow me if you'd like!  Only recommended if you like Superwholock gifs and lots of pictures of Benedict Cumberbatch and Misha Collins.
  3. My twitter is just over to the right there.  Your right, yes.  You might have to scroll up or down, but I have been assured it's there.
  4. Oh god am I actually posting this here yes I am
    Here is my newly created Archive Of Our Own account!  I've been writing Johnlock fanfiction, and if any of it is good enough to share, there's where I'll be putting it.
I'm re-evaluating what purpose blogging serves in my life right now.  I'd like to kick back up with regular updates, but I don't know what I should make those regular updates.  Reviewing things I'm watching?  (Supernatural, if you must know.)  Posting about what happens in my life for therapeutic purposes a la John Watson?  Reviewing sciencey things to help me remember stuff?  I don't know yet, but I'll be thinking about it.

Tuesday, February 5, 2013

Why you should be on Tumblr:


And also ruin my ability to post on my actual blog, because I'm spending too much time on Tumblr.
  1. This chill-inducing mash-up of Blinding by Florence and The Machine and Doctor Who
  2. SuperWhoLock.  That is, the amazing fandom crossover between Supernatural, Doctor Who, and Sherlock.  Seriously, this shit is bananas, B A N A N A S.  Check out these gifsets: [1 2 3]
  3. There is also a version of SuperWhoLock that mixes in the Avengers, and that is also the best
  4. Benedict fucking Cumberbatch, I am just saying
  5. That is where I lurk online when my energy is low because GRAD SCHOOL IS HARD, so if you're a fan of what I do here on this blog, I am much more accessible there
This is actually cross-posting to Tumblr, so, HI TUMBLR.  I have the option of cross-posting Tumblr to this blog... but I don't think any of us want that.  No, no there are some things best left contained, and the feels/gifs I have featuring Benedict Cumberbatch are probably part of that.

Tuesday, January 29, 2013

Happy Anniversary!

Today's the day that John met Sherlock.  (2009 BBC Sherlock, that is.)

I wonder if John's visiting Sherlock's grave.

I might have to write that later.

You told me once that you weren't a hero. There were times I didn't even think you were human. But let me tell you this, you were the best man, the most human human being that I've ever known, and no one will ever convince me that you told me a lie.  So, there.

I was so alone, and I owe you so much.

Please, there’s just one more thing, one more thing, one more miracle, Sherlock, for me. Don’t be dead. Would you do that just for me? Just stop it. Stop this.

Wednesday, January 23, 2013

Africans in the Diaspora signal-boost

Excerpt from When Doing Good Goes Wrong: One Woman’s Story about White Saviorism in Africa:
Meet Lindiwe
During my 6-month Africans for Africa project last year, I met Lindiwe (not a real name), a retired, 60-something year old African woman. Lindiwe had been running an orphanage out of her own home for the past 10 years. The government had agreed to offer her some money every month to care for up to two children, but the amount was no where near what she needed to care for the twenty-seven she’d taken in. 
You see, most of their parents had passed away from HIV/AIDS, or abandoned them when they moved away to find more work. Lindiwe could barely afford to replace their tattered clothes, let alone their school uniforms. If not for the charity of a wholesale grocery store that donated canned goods each month, Lindiwe wouldn’t have been able to feed the orphans in her care at all. 
But, one day, a young white American couple (that had been backpacking through the region) arrived at her doorstep, and offered to help Lindiwe raise money from abroad. The plan was to set up a non-profit in the U.S. to serve as a fiscal sponsor (i.e. serve as an umbrella organization) to the orphanage, which would enable them to collect tax-deductible donations from their network back in the states. Lindiwe couldn’t believe her luck. And, perhaps she shouldn’t have. 
Read more...

Tuesday, January 22, 2013

I was going to promote this, and then it sold out

If you haven't already bought a ticket, you should be jealous of people who are going to...


... in part because YOURS TRULY is going to be a panelist there!

I'll be at the first panel, covering predictions for S7, the 50th, and beyond.  (Hoo boy, do I have some things to say about that, let me tell you.)  Then again at the Relationships in Who panel, and then the very last panel which is Tennant vs. Smith.

All the props to Ken Spivey and company for organizing this thing.  That man is *the* reason I found the local Who convention scene in the first place.  And his hair is oh so fluffy!

If you do happen to have a ticket, I'll be very recognizable.  I'm cosplaying as The Corsair - and coincidentally, the whole thing happens over Gasparilla, the Tampa pirate festival.  Molto bene!

Monday, January 21, 2013

An auspicious day

Barry gave a really nice speech today.


It does give me a fuzzy, that the second inaugural address of the first black President is on MLK Day.

Here's a thing to ponder today, a day of history made and history in the making.


Wednesday, January 16, 2013

GJ, The Onion.

Wow.  The Onion hit it right on the head.

Content note: contains violence, dead bodies, mayhem and carnage.
http://www.theonion.com/articles/the-6-best-dresses-at-the-golden-globes,30897

Wow.

...

Dear The Onion:


Love, Muse

Saturday, January 12, 2013

This is totally something my mom would do


Oh Jesus Christ, run.

Along these lines, my mom's most recent text asked me to send her "a love message" that she could read when she's missing me.

*shudder*

Pro-tip:  Stalking and harassment is just as abusive when it comes from parents of adult children.

Wednesday, January 9, 2013

I just had the nicest customer service exchange

And there's a good chance that I could have had an identical conversation with a modified Eliza.
But only a really, really cool modified Eliza.

16:49:09 Muse: Hi, I just got my order... and it's the wrong thing. Do I talk to you about that, or would you please direct me to the restaraunt?
You are now speaking with Bijan of Eat24 Support.
16:49:38 Bijan: Hello Krista
16:49:51 Muse: Hello!
16:49:52 Bijan: You can always let us know about how your order is and we'll take care of it for you
16:49:59 Bijan: May I ask, what went wrong with your order?
16:50:09 Muse: I ordered a chicken and ham calzone, and I got what looks like a sausage or hamburger pizza
16:50:29 Bijan: Oh wow, that's incredibly wrong
16:50:36 Bijan: And no calzone?!?!?!
16:50:43 Muse: Nope :(
16:50:49 Bijan: That's messed up
16:50:52 Muse: I did get the 2-liter I ordered
16:51:12 Muse: so it's not all terrible, heh
16:52:04 Bijan: I think the restaurant may be giving you a call shortly
16:52:06 Muse: the delivery guy ran back down my steps before I had a chance to check
16:52:20 Muse: kewl
16:54:17 Muse: they just called, and are bringing my order! thank you
16:54:26 Bijan: Nice! You're welcome, Krista =)

So basically what I'm saying is, Eat24hours.com is great and you should patronize them.

Monday, January 7, 2013

What the everloving privileged what?

Warning: linked piece contains kyriarchal fuckery up to and including joking about prison rape. 
Be ye so warned.

Herein lies the piece:  Lose My Benefits? I'd Rather Go to Jail!

The blog is supposed to be about "the lighter side of the economic crisis," so this is a comedy article.  Where the main punchline appears to be, "Ha ha people sure are desperate in these economic times".

Seriously.

Actual quote:

Wow, 70 percent of parents [ would rather spend a night in jail than lose their job benefits]? How do you explain that one?  "Sorry, Jimmy, Mommy needs to do some hard time so your little sniffle whiffles are covered by health insurance …"



This was followed by a comedic(?) list of "six quick tips for surviving jail".



Winding up with a racist highlight involving AAVE, and ending with a rape joke.


CINDY PERMAN, WHUT THE PRIVILEGED FUCK ARE YOU DOING.  STAWP IT.

Sunday, January 6, 2013

Happy New Year!

Hello!  How's 2013 been treating you?  I've been tired and busy... and as Elodie Under Glass put it, it's OK to just be tired sometimes.

Instead of silent film actresses,
I offer you Tennant and Barrowman.

The new year brings a new semester, and for me a brand-new challenge: instructing my own class.  Which necessitates a schedule that is... diurnal.  And not just that; regularly diurnal.  So I've come up with a schedule that's doable - waking up at 9 AM, bedtime at midnight - and implementing it.  I'd say it's a new year's resolution, but I'd be fibbing.  It's more like what I need to do as a professional this semester.  And since that last bit is worth it to me, I'll be doing it.

My actual new year's resolutions, which I posted on Facebook and everything, was (and I quote):
Check #UfYH every day. Cook at least 1 meal/week at home. Seek tranquility.
I figure that if I keep to these parameters, the rest of my schedule will shake itself out accordingly.  Tomorrow I'm doing some of the weekend challenges.  Any Terrifying Motivation would be welcomed.

I hope I'm up to the task.  It's an empirical question... let's find out together, shall we?